Quarantine Thoughts #26: Normal

As I was scrolling through Instagram on my bed at 3am in the morning, I came across a post from a pastor of a megachurch. I only saw few seconds of the clip but what he said really left an impression on my mind. He was talking about how people are saying this is the new normal in the midst of the coronavirus pandemic. But he pointed out that the Lord spoke to him saying there is no such thing as normal. And that right there left a huge impression on me.

To me when I hear normal, it brings up other words like “security” and “stability”. It’s normal when I have mental stability, financial security, work stability, etc. But through this pandemic and my experiences, it reaffirmed the notion that there is no such thing as the concept of “normal.”

STABILITY

While working at my most recent job, I had a huge revelation. No one in the company was normal. The CEO wasn’t normal. The marketer wasn’t normal. My design team wasn’t normal. And I certainly wasn’t normal either. We were all weird and different in many ways. But not only were we weird, no one was completely mentally stable. And I firmly believe no one in this Earth is normal and is really 100% mentally stable. Except Father God of course. But that’s not the point. All the coworkers that I worked with, they had some problems they were dealing with whether it was mental, spiritual, or emotional.

We are so fragile and weak and stability is a concept that we are not familiar with and to be honest, will never achieve. That’s why we lean onto God because only He is “normal” and people might think why I’m calling Him normal. I’m not using the word normal like it’s mundane and boring. I’m using normal as the highest thing that we humans can never achieve. Not only is God “normal” but he is extraordinary and constant. He is steadfast. That’s why we need to lean on Him because we’re not any of those. We’re definitely not steadfast or constant because let’s be honest, if one small situation arises, we would get stressed and anxious. We are a ball of emotions that is always changing everyday. We can’t make up our mind and make a decision.

It’s like this: Imagine you’re out in a wide open field and a storm is coming. Strong winds pick up and you’re about to be blown away. Let’s replace storm with your situation and strong winds as your emotions and thoughts. So your emotions are making you sway left and right and you can’t stand still. But thankfully, there’s a huge sturdy tree nearby and you walk towards it fighting the direction of the wind. Your arms reaches for the trunk and you hold onto it for your dear life. That strong and unwavering tree is God. God is the one preventing you from being lost in the storm. If we truly want stability or at least something close to it, you have to hold onto God. Or else you’re just going to be lost in the winds of your emotions.

SECURITY

Over the course of a month, over 22 million people lost their jobs in US alone and another 5 million more will join the stat. I’m one of those 22 million people who suddenly lost their jobs. One day you were working like it was any normal day and the next you receive an email or a call saying you are laid off. Surprisingly, this isn’t my first time experiencing a lay off.

Back in 2018, I was laid off at my first job and to be honest, I was devastated. It wasn’t like I didn’t know that it was coming but I didn’t think it would be so soon. The company was going through financial difficulties and had no choice but to let go which was perfectly fine. But it was hard. The next 10 months was full of fear, anxiety, and tears all mixed together. At the end, God did bless me with a new job when I was most desperate but man, looking back, those were one of the darkest times in my life. But even in the midst of it all, I was able to learn that:

  1. There is no such thing as job security. Really there isn’t.
  2. There’s no point in worrying about things you can’t control like getting a job. The only thing you can do is have faith in Father God that He will provide at the end. To keep on pushing through with uncertainty and never stop applying.

Did I enjoy those 10 months? Definitely not. There is some part of me that regrets how much time I lost by crying and worrying when I could’ve travelled and enjoyed my time more. Because once you get a job, you won’t ever get that much free time again. It’s funny how I am in the same exact situation again with one month in being jobless. But there’s where the similarity ends. What’s different now is that I’m not worrying about getting a job right now. I’m not crying in the bed pulling my hair out because of anxiety.

Some people might call me foolish and that I should definitely be worried about trying to get a job. And I want to tell those people “Don’t worry.” If you have faith in God that He will provide then He will provide. He would never abandon you and I have faith in Him as He showed me grace. As long as I keep on having faith and doing what I need to do, then that’s all that matters.

So is there such thing as normal? The short answer is no. No one is normal and definitely, this world isn’t normal either. The world is always changing and getting worse and worse. So where can you find “normal”? The only place to find it is through God. God is normal and steadfast. Unchanging and constant. He’s forever.

 

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